Sunday, June 12, 2011

Leighton Meester

I've been trying to figure out what it is about this young woman that speaks to me so. Obviously at this point it can be assumed that it's more than just your basic fangirlness. She moves me on a spiritual level, speaks to my soul. I've been trying to figure out why that is. What is it about Leighton that affects me?

I think part of it is definitely her past. We have the whole parent in prison thing in common. And she's not ashamed of it, the same way I'm not ashamed. I admire that. She's a famous young woman in Hollywood and yet she has no problem talking about her mother and her time in prison. I like that. I hope I would be that strong.

She's stunningly beautiful, but not in a conventional way. She has flaws. She has things that she's probably uncomfortable with. But she's so confident and comfortable in her own skin. She's proud of her body and her accomplishments. She's confident without being arrogant, self-assured and still humble. I've never heard one bad thing about her. She's admittedly sexual and excited about love, wary but not afraid. She seems like she'd be the best friend.

I don't know, honestly. Maybe to some she doesn't seem like anything special, but to me she's an idol. She's someone I try to emulate, to model my life after. You all probably think I'm psychotic, but that's alright. I can't really explain it. All I know is that I'm sitting here watching "Country Strong" and crying because I think she's so wonderful. I hope someday I can tell her how much she's affected me.